Delta Author shares her inspirational story
"It's exhausting being an alcoholic, it absolutely consumes every thought, every feeling, every action that you take, it takes you and holds you hostage," said Heidi.
Heidi Davis has been fighting a battle with alcohol since before she was a teenager.
Drinking caused her to push everyone she cared about out of her life, almost everyone.
"Except Ariel, she refused to leave, she would not do it no matter what I said no matter what I did she was like a guardian to me," said Heidi.
One night, Heidi hit rock bottom and tried to take her own life.
When she woke up lying next to her was that guardian.
"I laid there and I stared at Ariel, and I stared at her face for three and a half hours, just stared and she represented hope for me, she represented that I don't have to live this life."
That horrible night, May 21st 2009, was the last drink Heidi ever had.
"It's amazing, I can't really describe it I feel whole, a feel like a whole person, I feel like I stepped out of this cloud of misery and loneliness, and it's pretty amazing. I can see that there's purpose in life today," Heidi said.
For awhile everything seemed to be going great until another cruel twist of fate.
"Just seven months into my sobriety Ariel and her friend Haley were walking from our home, it was on December 20th and they were walking to Wal-Mart and she was hit by a car, and she died instantly," said Heidi.
Heidi stated, "I believe with all my heart I was given seven months to prepare. To put all of my trust in God, and you know I miss her she was so much more than just a daughter. I mean she was my friend and she took care of me when I couldn't for myself," stated Heidi.
After the accident Heidi began writing letters, some addressed to her daughter and some written to God.
Those letters and memories eventually turned into something bigger.
"I thought you know if what I'm supposed to do is help someone else, then that's what I'm supposed to do" added Heidi.
As for Ariel, Heidi has faith she'll see her daughter again someday.
Heidi said, "But I know that she's okay, and I know that I'm going to see her, so that's what keeps the hope inside of me, and I know that if I take a drink, all of that's gone, there will be no more hope in my heart."
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